Thursday, March 27, 2014

A Note From Jezebel's Typist


Jezebel passed away in my arms this morning.  As some of you may know, I've had Jezebel since I was 6 years old - she has been a major part of my life.  I was the one who picked her out - I couldn't resist the crazy kitten that was literally climbing the cage to get me to notice her.  

I slept on the floor in the living room so I could be near her - I didn't want to have her up in a bed in case she tried to go anywhere and fell.  I kept waking up every couple of hours to check on her.  She was so still and she felt cool, but she was still breathing. When I woke up for good around 7, I wrapped her up in my arms and held her for hours.  

She seemed like she was beginning to struggle, so my mom and I decided we were going to take her to the vet.  But she passed away in my arms before we had the chance.  We buried her in the backyard, near where we buried Hank's ashes and Charlie last summer.

I feel like my heart is breaking.  Thank you for your friendship.

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  1. I'm so sorry. Words cannot express how sorry I am for you. This is heartbreaking, I'm crying. (((HUGS)))). She'll live on in your heart forever and ever.


    I read this beautiful quote when I'm really missing Tadpole. I hope it helps, some.

    If tears could build a stairway, and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.
    No farewell words were spoken, no time to say goodbye. You were gone before I knew it, and only god knows why.
    My heart still aches in sadness, and secret tears still flow. What it means to lose you no one will ever
    know.


    But now I know you want me, to grieve for you no more; to remember all the happy times, life still has much in store.
    Since you'll never be forgotten, I pledge to you today: a hollowed place within my heart is where you'll ALWAYS stay.
    -Author Unknown.




    ((Hugs)).

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  2. .... and St Francis said, "Come little one, there is nothing more I can do for you here, don't be afraid" ......and St Francis gently picked up Jez and carried her into the kingdom of heaven

    .....when the little cat looked around, she realized everything St Francis told her on her journey was true....heaven was beautiful beyond what mere words could express.....

    ...... and Jez saw there was no pain, suffering, fear, sickness, hunger, thirst or sorrow, until she looked down and saw the family and friends she had left behind.

    ......and for a very brief moment, the little cat too, was filled with sorrow.

    Then St Francis bestowed Jez with a set of gossamer wings and said, "Use them to return to your family, when their need is the greatest, as nothing can separate your bond of love. Hold each other in your hearts and your memories, until you are reunited again at heaven's door."

    and when the little cat tried on her wings, she knew nothing was impossible...... when there is....love

    God's speed to you Jez with love from Boomer, Dai$y, Tuna.....
    and Dude and Sauce too... you are, and always will be, a beautiful girl ♥♥♥

    we are truly truly sorry :(........



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    1. You are such wise kitties. Thank you for these words.

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    2. Awww, Tabbies, thanks so much for your beautiful words.

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  3. Miss Jez had the best life any cat could ever dream of.
    Sending lots of hugs and prayers your way from us here in Idaho.

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  4. We are so sorry that sweet Jezebel has passed on. We know having just lost Ancient Pip in December after 12 years together how hard it is. We will pray for you and we send our love and hugs.
    Take care and cling on to those sweet memories.
    Best wishes Molly

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  5. So sorry for Jez's passing. She will always be in your heart. RIP dear sweetheart.

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  6. The hardest part of opening our hearts to our furbabies is that their lives will always be shorter than ours. We know there will be pain when they leave, but we are so grateful for their lives and how it enriches our own. You gave Jezebel, and Jezebel gave you a wonderful 21 years together. We are thinking of you at this difficult time. Hugs. We are all here if you need us.

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    1. Thanks Buddy. It is so hard to lose them.

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  7. My heart breaks with you. So many of my kitties have died in my arms, and it is almost impossible to let go of them even after their little bodies have grown cold. You just think if you snuggle close enough and keep them warm, that they will return to you. With love and sympathy as you deal with the loss of your precious Jezebel. XO, Janet

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  8. I cannot even begin to find the words to tell you how deeply sorry I am to learn about Jez. What a beautiful girl. I know how it is to lose a "soul kitty".....it is the most awful thing, but as Buddy above said you each gave each other so much. How blessed you were to have her for 21 years (my Bobo passed when he was 18).........sending you much love and if there is anything at all that we can do to help, we are here. Much love and our deepest sympathy, Caren and Cody

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  9. I am so very, very sorry. Jezebel was your kitty, through and through and my heart is breaking for you.

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    1. Thanks Sparkle. It's so hard not to see her in her usual places.

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  10. Oh we are so very sorry. We send you comforting purrs and gentle headbutts.

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  11. Your heart is going to feel broken for some time, I think. That's a tribute to how very much you loved her.

    But one day, in a bit when you are feeling better, you will understand that Jezebel was the very luckiest of kitties to have spent her life with you, who took such wonderful care of her though the ups and downs of 21 years, who saw that she was fed, and warm, and loved every day, right up to the very minute she slipped from this world into the next. Kitties don't get to be 21 years old by accident--it means their People were the best caretakers ever.

    I hope that your sweet boy Travis is giving you some extra purrs and lovins tonight--we are sending you purrs and purrayers, too.

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    1. He's been being a real sweetheart - lotsa extra cuddles.

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  12. Sweet purrs of comfort on their way from Quinn. Angel kitties are taking care of your Jez until you join her, my three included.
    She will always be in your heart. Soft headbumpies on your sorrowing heart. That's where the soft headbumpies are coming from! Jez!

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  13. Our love and thoughts are with you all. Goodby sweet Jezebel!!!!!!!

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  14. Oh we have been out of the loop this week and just saw now that Jezebel had had a hard week...and we are so, so sorry to hear that your precious Jezebel has passed on. We send you our gentlest purrs and thoughts of love to help comfort your hurting heart. You loved her so well and it was special that she left on her own terms in your very arms. You will be in our thoughts.

    Be Well Sweet Jezebel

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  15. Jez sure made sure that she was going to make her journey *her way*, and yes she sure did...
    What sadness and empty hearts you have now we are sure. Heavy ones too.
    We can't take that away, but know that sharing your burdens here with others is exactly what Jez would want you to do.

    Sending tons of hugs and comforting purrs from Pipo & Minko, too.

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  16. I am so genuinely sad for your loss.....Jezebel went on her own terms with all the love in the world surrounding her - as it should be. I know there's nothing I can say to make it better except I love thinking of her running over the Bridge in a field of flowers like a kitten again after a long and happy life with you.

    Hugs, Sammy and his Mom Pam

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  17. We're so sorry to hear that Jezebel has gone OTB. We're sending your our purrs and prayers for healing at this sad time. We're glad you were with her when she left and that she was held in loving arms as she crossed.

    The Florida Furkids

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  18. You have our deepest sympathy. We send prayers to you at this time of sorrow. We know Jezebel left to go OTB the way she wanted to go, in your arms. May your soul run free sweet Jezebel. *Hugs* Love, Cali, Andy, Tater and Shelly (C.A.T.S) and Mom Judy

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  19. We are sending you and Mom purrs of support. It is good that she went being loved and in your arms.
    Dear Jezebel please watch over us from above until that day we all meet in the land of endless sun and big tress with shade for when we want to nap. Please watch over us Jezebel
    Timmy, Dad and family

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  20. Zaidie and I are so very sorry to hear about Jezebel. Please know that you and your family are in our thoughts at this sad time. Rest in peace, sweet Jez

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  21. I am sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
    Sue B
    Charlie, Cashew, Garfield, Tubby

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  22. Sending purrs & condolences from all of us at Purrchance To Dream.

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  23. I am so sorry for your seperation from each other . I can't imagine your pain, so much of your lives wrapped around each other. A huge loss.
    We send to you our best healing purrs and prayers of comfort. Until you two meet again in Forever.

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  24. It's a huge loss to experience the love of a cat from childhood into adulthood. Jezebel will always have special place in your heart. I send gentle purrs of healing on your grieving journey. Email me if you like. I'm writing a book on pet loss and doing a study to help others during grieving.

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    1. It just feels like there's something missing around here - we all keep expecting to see her.

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  25. Purrs to you on your loss. Jezebel is having fun with the rest of the CB angels at The Bridge now.

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  26. We are so sorry that Jezebel had to go to the Bridge. Thank you for loving her so much, and so well. Surely you will one day be reunited because of the love you have shared. Hugs, purrs and prayers to you.

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  27. We are so very sorry that Jezebel left for the Bridge. We know she will watch over you. We send you kitty kisses and purrs and happy memories of her help you through....

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  28. I am very very sorry to hear about your loss of Jezebel. I cannot imagine how you are feeling. So much history between you two. I wish there were some words of comfort I could offer you but alas there is none. None at all. The thing you have rock solid is knowing for 21 years you had a special loving bond with your beloved Jez and that will never leave you. It will remain with you all of your days. She will never leave you although right now it seems like the world is empty without her, she surrounds you with her spirit and it will always be there to comfort you. If you believe as I do then one day there will be a grand reunion and you once again will hear the purrs of your beloved Jez. Until that day remember that going forward now each morning you are going towards that reunion and I hope it will give you some comfort. You have the past to give you good memories and the future to know you will be reunited. Keeping you in my purrs and prayers.

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  29. I am so sorry for your loss and know your heart is breaking. Try to take some comfort in knowing that you not only gave Jezebel a lifetime of love, but you were with her giving her love as she made her journey to the Bridge.
    Purrs and (((hugs)))

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  30. We are so very sorry to hear about sweet Jezebel. We send you our very best purrs along with gentle hugs and lots of love.

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  31. Each day will get a little easier to bear and your heart will hurt a little less as time goes on. You were so lucky to have had her for 21 years. She is now watching over you until you meet again.

    Cats of wildcat woods

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  32. My eyes are full of tears as I type - I know just how you feel as I have held all my beloved cats as they have crossed over Rainbow Bridge but I could never let them depart alone. Remember all the fun and laughter you have had together and all the love you have shared - it is something to draw strength from when you feel lost.
    Luv Hannah and Lucy xx xx

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  33. We are so so sorry but just know that she was so loved while she lived with you and she had a wonderful wonderful home. You all will be in our thought and prayers. And we send many purrs and hugs. Take care.

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  34. Sending you all many soft purrs and comfort hugs. We are truly sorry to read about angel Jezebel. Take care
    x

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  35. We are so sorry that beautiful Jezebel has left you. She couldn't have wished for a better life and we're so glad that she got to spend a little time out in the garden a few days ago. There is something extra special about elderly cats, Jezebel was extra special and then some. To lose a long time friend and family member is so very hard. The happy memories of your life together will come to you soon.

    Fly free Jezebel and please keep an eye on your family for a little while

    Luff
    Mungo & The Ape xx

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  36. Mom and I are so very very sorry to read of Jezebel's passing....we know your heart is broken for she was truly your soul mate and she selected you to be her person. What a precious story of how she selected you. We send you gentle kitty hugs and comforting purrs.
    Madi and Mom

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  37. I’m coming to pay my respects to Jezabel. *bows head* We have leaky eyes. Comforting purrz to you and Travis.

    Poem For Cats

    And God asked the feline spirit
    Are you ready to come home?
    Oh, yes, quite so, replied the precious soul
    And, as a cat, you know I am most able
    To decide anything for myself.
    Are you coming then? asked God.
    Soon, replied the whiskered angel
    But I must come slowly
    For my human friends are troubled
    For you see, they need me, quite certainly.
    But don't they understand? Asked God
    That you'll never leave them?
    That your souls are intertwined. For all eternity?
    That nothing is created or destroyed?
    It just is....forever and ever and ever.
    Eventually they will understand,
    Replied the glorious cat
    For I will whisper into their hearts
    That I am always with them
    I just am....forever and ever and ever.

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  38. I am so sorry for your loss. You were with her and she knew how much you loved her.

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  39. We are sending you our Best Purrs Of Comfort at this sad time. But we are glad that Jezebel went to the Bridge loved and held close...

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  40. So very sorry. I know how it hurts to lose a beloved pet. Sending purrs and pawtaps with a big hug.

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  41. Jezebel lived a very good, long life with you. Many purrs and purrayers to you at this difficult time.

    Luf, Us and Maw

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  42. We are so sorry for your loss. What a good life she had, a fortunate ladycat!
    Purrs..
    ~ The Bunch and Mom Bobbie

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  43. We are so very sad about this!! We are happy you had each other for so long, but that's what makes it so hard to have to go one without her! Much love! xxoo Patty & Bhu

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  45. We are so very sorry to hear about your beautiful Jezebel running off to the Rainbow Bridge. She sure was a lucky girl to have your love her whole life. I bet our Rambler was there to greet her at the Rainbow Bridge. He left us that same morning. (((hugs))) & <3
    http://thecreekcats.blogspot.com

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    1. Sorry to hear about Rambler. Sending lotsa hugs and love.

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  46. I'm so sorry to read it, I'm sad for your loss. She will greet Loupi overthere, he left us 2 hours ago. I send you comforting purrs. Zorro

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    1. I'm sorry to her about Loupi - sending big hugs.

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  47. We are so sorry for your loss! We know what a big part of one's life a kitty can be and how painful it is to lose them. But it sounds like Jezebel passed away in the best way possible, surrounded with love and with her beloved owner. We hope that is a comfort to you. Our prayers and purrs are with you.

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  48. I am so sorry for the devastating loss of your beautiful Jezebel...I understand how hard it is to lose such a big part of your life and family...Wishing you all comfort at this sad time...LOVE never dies...hugs...Jacqueline, Calle, Halle, Sukki, Mommy Cat, Daddy Cat

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  49. I'm so sorry to hear about your beautiful Jezebel. Take comfort in knowing she is at peace but will always be watching over you from above. Her memory will always remain in your heart.

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  50. We are so very sorry to hear of Jezebel's loss. We are sending comforting purrs and hugs.

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  51. We are so sorry for your loss.

    Purrs xx
    Athena and Marie

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  52. I am so sorry about your loss.
    I've had cats since I was six.
    Each loss burns my soul.
    Give it a few months and you will only remember the good times,
    Know that she had a marvelous life with you.
    She was happy and that will get you through this.

    Hugs,
    JC and The Purr and Fur Gang

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  53. My heart breaks for you and I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved Jezebel. I can imagine a wonderful life that you shared together and may she be at peace. Purrs from Deb Barnes and the Zee and Zoey Gang!

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  54. Our purrs and our prayers are with you in your time of sadness.

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  55. What a wonderful long life. We're so sorry for your loss. Losing a life-long friend hurts, we know. Purrs and Prayers. Love, Crepes and Alana.

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  56. I am so very sorry for your loss. May Jezebel rest in peace.

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  57. I'm so sorry for your loss. My dear tortie, Gabrielle, lived through many of my "growing up" years so I know what it is like to lose a cat like that. But Jezebel will be with you always, in your heart and your memories. Please take care.

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  58. We are very sorry to hear this. We are sending prayers for peace in your heart.

    Hugs & love,
    Pam & Oskar

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  59. RIP Jezebel, it sounds you like you had a wonderful life. We know how heartbreaking it can be to lose one of our furry family members.. Love and hugs to you rmum from the Pawesome Cats family.

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  60. I am so very sorry that Jezbel ran off to the Rainbow Bridge. She had a long and wonderful life with you. I send hugs and the kitties send comforting purrs.

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